Desperately Seeking My LP Groove.
It’s Super Bowl Sunday once again and I’m linking up with Jana @jana’sthinkingplace for some stream of consciousness writing.
Five minutes, unedited on the prompt: Groove.
GO.
For the last few weeks, I’ve made no secret of the fact that I’m feeling out of my groove.
So far out in fact, I’m wondering if I ever had one.
But I see pictures, remember moments when I felt focused, directed and not unraveling as a roll of dental floss that my cat is batting around.
Maybe it’s the winter? I don’t do the colder months so well.
Maybe it’s getting older? Hormones and body changes that I can’t deny.
Maybe it’s the death of my dad?
Maybe it’s my children getting older? Sending one off to college this year made me realize how quickly my identity as mother will end.
I am a positive person. Or I so want to be.
I will adjust to all this change.
Reinvent myself one more time.
Find the groove in the LP and travel around the turntable, till the next thing bumps me out.
TIME.
So what say you?
Feeling groovy these days or no?
I like the use of analogy in your writing here along with that photo. I think part of our groove is reinventing it.
You know, maybe there’s a new groove heading your way. A new adventure, that will take all of your recent experiences and press them into a new LP. That is my wish for you.
That’s an interesting thought Tina. Definitely will be a different melody.
Your statement that your identity as a mother will end really hit me for some reason. My children are very young (5, 3, and 15-month-old twins) but I never think of my identity as a mom ending. Do you really think it ends? It changes, definitely, but ending? I don’t know. I guess I’ll have to keep living.
No you are right Alexis, being a mother never ends but letting their decisions and life choices affect our happiness has to end. I’m realizing my son has to live his own life, I can’t control it or attach my worth to it. Only enjoy seeing the man he is becoming.
To say you’ve had a rough go of it lately would be an understatement. ::: virtual hug ::: I love your strength and optimism. You *can* do this!
Thanks Megan. I’ll take a virtual hug any day.
I would say all of the things you listed would disturb your groove at least for a while. Things changed for the not so good, so pretty soon it will be time for them to change back to all good. It’s something wonderful to look forward to, right? Nice to see you today. Have a great week. 🙂
I LOVE YOUR WRITING, Jamie!!! And no I am not feeling my groove lately either. I think it may be the weather but sometimes I think it is spending too much time on the computer?
xoxo tiffani
That’s a great point about the computer Tiffani. I was having that same conversation with someone the other day. She sent me and article that said we need face to face interaction. And that all this online socializing can leave us empty. Can’t wait to see your new hair.
Everything you mentioned sounds like it would alter my groove, too… and for me, as you know, it’s been difficult to come to terms with the empty nest, huge. Although mothering doesn’t ever end, it most definitely changes in rhythm. My days of “being mom” are fewer. Here’s hoping you get your groove back (and me too!).
I think getting your book published along with marketing and selling it are huge indicators of grooviness, Julia.
I myself am in a groove but I sure know how you feel being out of one. Not the same reason maybe, but I feel so out of sorts and so needing to “fix” something when I’m not in my groove.