Musing on being too busy for lunch.

Musing on being too busy for lunch.

I wish that being too busy to eat was my problem.

It’s not. It’s stopping to make time for a child.

You see, I’ve been very busy trying to make up time that I lost having kids home during all those snow days.

I do plan on posting my thoughts about why running and long distance running matter so much to me. It’s all up in my head, but I haven’t had time the last few days.

This morning was one of those Single Mom mornings. My husband was at bible study.

The kids were bickering. Fighting about everything. I ended up yelling at everyone to quit yellinng.

UGH.

Fast forward to the primary school car pool line.

My 7-year-old asks, “Mom do you have to work today?”

“Yes, but it’s not like there is a deadline.”

“Can you come eat lunch with me?”

First, I did have lots of work to do and …laundry and things that have come up. But secondly, I couldn”t believe he was asking me since 20 minutes earlier I was the incarnation of well, you fill in blank.

“Yes…I will.”

Did that just come out of my mouth?

It did and I went. Now don’t get the wrong impression, I love to got sit with the children at lunch — I really do. It’s just a sad fact that when stressed I often let emotions rule my head.

Today, I let my head remain in charge.

I mean when do I not feel behind?  I better get used to my lot in life. There always will be more things to do than I have time or energy.

See..head over heart.

Things run better that way. I like me better that way. I seem much more kind, sane. A person who has faith in a God in whose strength she can do all she’s called to do..even if she’s not sure at the moment.

Could this be a day I grew a bit on the inside?